The Beauty of Friendship

My friends mean more to me than a lot of things and I'm very picky about who I am friends with. In all of my close friendships we are able to tell each other things and not nessicarily have to say "don't tell". We make fun of each other and do the stupidest things that make us crack up. we all have inside jokes and half the time people have no idea what we're talking about. We don't get embarrassed around each other and it's cool that way. With each friend I have a special connection that I don't have with anyone else. This makes each of them very different to me.

Kaitlyn is definately my best friend who I can say anything to without being judged. We say that we are vent buddies because when we're angry about something and need to blow off steam we call each other. Also, she's the only friend I have who knows everything about me. Lauren and me have a connection with music and making fun of each other. We call each other Chipmunk(me) and Bird(her). Alicia and I have known each other since we were two I believe. We have been friends forever and reminisce over our countless memories all the time. I have special bonds like these with many of my other friends as well. I appreciate my friendships and don't know what I would do without them.

The Journey

I am on a journey to find myself I believe. I'm not quite sure about what I want from life exactly. As I said in my second post, I don't have alot of stuff figured out that I should. If my life was a book, probably the only chapter written would be the first. Thinking about the future is difficult for me. I like to live in the present and past but don't enjoy the thought of the future. As I am on my journey to find myself I am truly afraid of what might happen. But, I still push forward as if everyday is just another day instead one less day I have. I want to enjoy the good things that come along with the journey although it is tough at times. Thinking about the journey that I am making to discover myself is something that makes me think deeper than usual.

To many people I just seem goofy and want to have a good time. In all actuallity though I am a big dreamer, a deep thinker, an underestimated, and complex person who wants answers but wants to be able to just wonder also. Things like this also make my self discovery journey hard to make. Along the way I would love to be inspired and would like to be taken seriously but not all of the time. The journey is trying and I want to be able to have fun along with finding myself. I don't want to be afraid of the future but embrace it. I want to be changed but stay myself also. I want to fulfill my journey and end it with pride.