Letting Comedy Balance It Out

Life can't always be serious. It's just not healthy. You have to have fun and let loose sometimes. When my life gets too serious for too long (a day or two) I seek something to make my life not so serious. Hanging out with friends is always good. But when you can put on really excellent dancing music (80's has a good selection) and just dance with no one watching is even better. You can be crazy and do whatever without worrying about an audience. Being funky and rediculous could reselt in some new slick dance moves...bonus! Watching a good comedy movie can also help with relieving too much seriousness. If you're serious all the time you are destined to be cranky and a prude when you get old. No one wants that. So when you are handed serious lemons, go out and trade them for humorous lemons! It's all about finding a balance for yourself.

Naive and Sheltered

I love my parents dearly and they would do anything for me. I had a great childhood and they have always been very involved in my life, maybe a little too much though. Since birth I have been sheltered very much. In 6th and 7th grade when my friend were going to the movies by themselves I was told no because there was no parent. Until this year I haven't been able to date unless I double dated with them (very irratating and frustrating). And now if I go out with a guy I still have to double with a friend. I know it's because they care but sometimes it feels like I want them to care a little less maybe. Once I got to high school I was in for a spin. I learned about so many things that I hadn't ever heard of at home because I was always sheltered. I felt so naive and out of the loop. Some days I'll be telling my mom about something that happened at school and she'll ask me how I know about that kind of stuff and my answer is always the same,"I go to school". It's shocks her and my dad quite often. I know there sheltering was out of love but I wish I was sheltered a little less.

My Unhealed Wound

It's almost been a year now. It will be the 1st aniversery of when I tore part of the ligament in my ankle in July. I used to tumble and I was really good. Many times I have been hurt while tumbling but it has never made me want to stop. Last year when the accident happened I thought that I had just landed wrong on my ankle and it would be okay soon. Oh boy wasn't I wrong. A couple of days later I had a tennis lesson and I had to stop the lesson short because my ankle started to throb and hurt really bad. My thinking was that it was still sore I just needed to rest some. So I skipped tennis and tumbling for a couple of weeks. It was a little better when I started back up. The pain never went fully away but stupid me thought it was just because I was always on it.

About six months ago the pain became unbearable and one day I couldn't walk on it and had to stay home from school. Concluding this I was forced to go to the doctor. Dr. Kooper took x-rays and gave me the bad news. He told me that part of the ligament in my left ankle was torn. But then he told me the even worse news. He told that I would have to give up tumbling or tennis and which ever one I didn't give up I had to take a break from. I couldn't give up tennis because I was on the school team. It was hard to just quit tumbling like that though. Not to sound dramatic but it was heart breaking in a way. But things just kept getting worse and worse. I had just given up tumbling and now had to take a two month break from tennis. And then i was given this huge ankle brace I had to wear every day plus I had to do physical therapy which I dreaded very much. Once I started tennis again I was given an elastic brace that I have to wear in all physical activities and I have to wear most days. My ankle is better now but Still hurts some days. The tear wasn't big enough for surgery so my ankle will never heal completly most likely. I am reminded everyday of the accident and still miss tumbling. Happy almost aniversery to me.

Thumbs Up For Me!

Ask anyone I know what sport I play and you have the answer of tennis! This is my game no doubt. A lot of people think that tennis is some easy sport that anyone can play but buddy you are wronger than having needles in a balloon factory! It's half mental, half physical and can be very difficult. I've been told since I started tennis in 4th grade that I was good. But I stopped because I got mad a the coach( very mature I know). I never thought twice about starting tennis again until at the end of 7th grade year when I was asked to join the tennis team by the new coach. When 8th grade started I thought that I would be horrible since it had been so long since I had played. But at the end of the week when the coach ranked us I was the third girl. Throughout 8th grade year I fell in love with tennis and wanted to play in high school.

I practiced all summer and I wanted to make varsity. I was dedicated and determined. On the first day of JV practice I made myself noticed and asked Coach Schubert if I could come and practice after school with varsity and possibly move up to varsity. She was excited that I was driven and I wanted to get on varsity as a freshmen. After a couple of weeks I had improved even more and Coach saw that. I was put on varsity and was ecstatic! As this year progressed I improved even more and this spring my doubles partner, Genesis Reed, and I became ranked third in the district. I am happy with how much I have improved and thumbs up to me!

The Beauty of Friendship

My friends mean more to me than a lot of things and I'm very picky about who I am friends with. In all of my close friendships we are able to tell each other things and not nessicarily have to say "don't tell". We make fun of each other and do the stupidest things that make us crack up. we all have inside jokes and half the time people have no idea what we're talking about. We don't get embarrassed around each other and it's cool that way. With each friend I have a special connection that I don't have with anyone else. This makes each of them very different to me.

Kaitlyn is definately my best friend who I can say anything to without being judged. We say that we are vent buddies because when we're angry about something and need to blow off steam we call each other. Also, she's the only friend I have who knows everything about me. Lauren and me have a connection with music and making fun of each other. We call each other Chipmunk(me) and Bird(her). Alicia and I have known each other since we were two I believe. We have been friends forever and reminisce over our countless memories all the time. I have special bonds like these with many of my other friends as well. I appreciate my friendships and don't know what I would do without them.

The Journey

I am on a journey to find myself I believe. I'm not quite sure about what I want from life exactly. As I said in my second post, I don't have alot of stuff figured out that I should. If my life was a book, probably the only chapter written would be the first. Thinking about the future is difficult for me. I like to live in the present and past but don't enjoy the thought of the future. As I am on my journey to find myself I am truly afraid of what might happen. But, I still push forward as if everyday is just another day instead one less day I have. I want to enjoy the good things that come along with the journey although it is tough at times. Thinking about the journey that I am making to discover myself is something that makes me think deeper than usual.

To many people I just seem goofy and want to have a good time. In all actuallity though I am a big dreamer, a deep thinker, an underestimated, and complex person who wants answers but wants to be able to just wonder also. Things like this also make my self discovery journey hard to make. Along the way I would love to be inspired and would like to be taken seriously but not all of the time. The journey is trying and I want to be able to have fun along with finding myself. I don't want to be afraid of the future but embrace it. I want to be changed but stay myself also. I want to fulfill my journey and end it with pride.